Downtown there’s a café like you see in every movie. There’s a waitress floating towards me with curls in her hair. And she knows that I come here everyday to see her. She does not seem at all scared. I’m saving the ashes while boarding the train. I’m waving goodbye to my friends and my name. “He’s gone,” they’ll say. The lights will all dim as the passengers sleep. I’ll slip out the sidecar and fall to the streets. “He’s gone,” they’ll say. Now she’s tearing down the wall I have worked to build up this tall. And she’s laughing at all of my quips. But I know that I’m leaving in half an hour. And nothing could hurt worse than this. I’m crumpled up now but without disdain. I’m coming back soon with a new name. Won’t know me by the way I walk in. One of these days we can talk about it. How could she notice that I am not the same as I’ve always been? And I just keep waking up older than I was the day before. And if nothing can stop the passage of time, what can I do on this city’s dime? Fleeting. It is. I saw the ocean for the first time when these were newborn eyes.
released February 24, 2015
Engineered and produced by Breathtaker. Mixed by Joshua Aaron Smith. Mastered by Alan Douches for West West Side Music.