I remember breaking all the rules. I remember promising that we would stay this young for years. I remember how we met at school. I remember those eye lashes and how I would not fall for them. How I was wrong. I’d never needed anyone before I met her. I won’t forget her. I swear. Flash forward: 5:18. I am at a crime scene. Oh, God. When did I get here? Everything’s been painted red. In all my years I’ve never seen this kind of violence. We are born and then left alone to fend. So every single day I’ve washed it all away. Something struck me cold when I was four years old. Good men turn away every single day. I once believed in all those things you’d expect from a badge like me. But now my eyes are open. And all the bad fortune of these men is theirs alone tonight. But I won’t, no, I won’t turn away. I’ve got too much pride in me. But I won’t, no, I won’t turn away. And I would trade it all for sleep. I just want to sleep.
released February 24, 2015
Engineered and produced by Breathtaker. Mixed My Joshua Aaron Smith. Mastered by Alan Douches for West West Side Music.